Thank you Google

So I almost had a really bad day, but then I didn't (how juvenile do I sound? lol)

In preparing for the new semester today I was organizing everything on my computer I came to realize that I had two Google accounts, one attached to my original email (that I had created to use Google calendar) and one from the G-mail account USF gives us. So I decided to delete my old google acount because I hardly ever used it anyway and create a calendar attached to my USF email, for the sake of being streamlined and efficient. So I did that.

But low and behold, blogger is hosted by Google! I was not aware of this. Which might point to my lack of technical finesse or to my general airheadedness, you decide. haha...

So when I tried to access my blog to find it gone, I panicked! I spent about an hour trying to find the answer. I ended up Googling it actually, which is insanely ironic. But anywho, Google has step by step instructions just for people like me! So I got my account back, much to my relief.

But, in all the insanity and panic something became remarkably clear. I'm self-centered to the point of ridiculousness. I get more upset at the thought of my little scraps of writing being lost to cyberspace then about people going to hell. Even this little confession is self-centered. "oh look, how humble and Godly I am" it practically screams. Even my confessions about my confession is self-centered.

I can't escape myself.
"For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal sold under sin. For what I am doing I do not understand. What I will to do, that I do not practice. But, what I hate, that I do."

-Romans 7:14

But, thanks be to God that I don't have to. The greatest mystery that has been revealed to me over this Christmas break is that while I keep on sinning, God keeps on winning. I'm tottally sucking as a christian right now, but God is still using me. That doesn't make any sense in terms of human logic. Think about it! If you were an employer and you had an employee that stole from you, wasted your time, talked about you behind you back and was completely incompetent, would you make her a manager? No, you'd fire her. But, God isn't going to fire me! Instead, he has raised me up to be a saint and to do greater things for him then I ever imagined possible.

Paul said in Ephesians that by accepting Christ we are free from our sins, no longer are we slaves, no longer are we bound for death.

"And you He made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sins, ² in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience, ³ among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others. ⁴ But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, ⁵ even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), ⁶ and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, ⁷ that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. ⁸ For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, ⁹ not of works, lest anyone should boast. ¹⁰ For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.

Ephesians 2:1-10

He also said in Romans that salvation is not through our on power. It's sobering to think that its impossible for us to become holy through our own power, but on the flip side how relieving it is to realize that we don't have to! Christ work is already accomplished, God's perfect plan of redemption is finished!

^"6 For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. ⁷ For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. ⁸ But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. ⁹ Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him. ¹⁰ For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life. ¹¹ And not only that, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received the reconciliation."

-Romans 5:6-10