Why am I in nursing school?

“Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God” 

~Hebrews 12:1-2~

My pastor once told me that it is important to study the Bible in times of plenty to prepare for times of famine. That way we are ready to cling to the Word and to Christ when things start going haywire. It's so easy to get caught up in the day-to-day hustle and bustle of life and completely forget the reason why we do what we do. I've learned that it's important to counsel my own heart from the scriptures so that I do not fall into temptation. I wrote this to encourage myself when I'm having a rough time in school. Hopefully it will encourage you as well.

Why am I in nursing school? 

To bring Glory to God

“Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God”

~ 1 Corinthians 10:3

 To advance the Gospel and Christ’s Kingdom 

To be a light unto the world

 

To serve

"For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many." ~Mark 10:45

Why am I putting up with all this hard stuff?

I am required to pick up my cross daily

^“Then He said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me.” ~Luke 9:23

To much has been given much is required

“But he who did not know, yet committed things deserving of stripes, shall be beaten with few. For everyone to whom much is given, from him much will be required; and to whom much has been committed, of him they will ask the more” ~Luke 12:48

It is a joy to suffer as Christ has suffered.

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us” ~Romans 8:18

“My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” ~James 1:2-3

What should I remember when I have a bad day?

Go to God for comfort

“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light” ~Matthew 11:28-30

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.” ~ 1 Corinthians 1:3-4

God is disciplining me, for my benefit, so that I will look more like Christ.

"Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it. " ~ Hebrews 12:11

Sarah Jo, 

Take advantage of this opportunity to die to self. Lay aside all of your laziness and self-centeredness, your complaining spirit and your discontentment.  Seize the day for Christ. Put on humility, kindness, love and patience.

More thoughts on the Gospel

There have been many a dark night in my soul (as it were) over the course of my journey with Christ. Times where I have been tempted to give up and give in. Times where I thought my faith would fail. There was even a week where I was 100% convinced that I was a vessel of wrath prepared for destruction. Looking back, I see that these periods of soul tempest were a direct result of looking to myself for righteousness. In looking inward for goodness, I despaired, and rightly so! "For I know that in my flesh nothing good dwells" 

Oh the sin that plagues me so! The moment I think I have gained mastery over it, it rears its ugly head and overtakes me. I am 'prone to wander Lord, I feel it', " But where sin abounds, grace abounds much more"

Nevertheless, Christ is the compassionate savior. "When Satan tempts me to despair and tells me of the guilt within, upward I look and see him there, who made an end of all my sin"

"Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need" ~ Hebrews 4:14-16


I, who am the most unworthy, completely deserving of death "for the wages of sin IS death", once an enemy of Christ, has now been brought near by the blood of Jesus Christ. I am at peace with God because I have been justified by faith. False and full of sin I am! But, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. So now I will rejoice in God!



"I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. And the life that I live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God..." 


Never, have I seen such love as the love that was poured out at calvary. How frequently am I moved to tears when I meditate on the never-ending love of God. Jesus "loves me for me, not for what I have done or what I will become"


For I have not come to the mountain that burned with fire, but I have come to Mount Zion, the City of the living God!


"Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let us have grace, by which we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear. For our God is a consuming fire."

  "Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand." ~Ephesians 6:11-13 




As the Indian hymn says, "I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back..."

Soli Deo Gloria

Nicaragua

Buenos, Amigos!

I just returned from my third international spring break service trip. This year I spent my spring break serving the people of Nicaragua along with 16 other honors college students and a team of medical and dental students from UCATSE (A private Catholic University in Nicaragua).

We flew into Managua on Saturday evening of the 17th. We spent Sunday in Managua exploring the sights and sounds of the city before heading to our service site. Monday morning we loaded up and headed to Esteli, a small town about three hours out of Managua.

I think the most incredible part of our day in Managua was our visit to an active volcano. I have never seen anything like it before. The massive size of the crater was beyond description. It was incredible to smell the sulfur and see the gases rising up from the center of the crater. I felt as if I were getting a glimpse into Hell. I shuttered to think of the agony of eternal fire that awaits those who reject Jesus Christ. 

The gases at the top make breathing nearly impossible. I started coughing as soon as I reached the cross.

On Tuesday, our group split into teams of four and we spent the morning in different local health clinics. At the clinic I learned a lot about public health in Nicaragua. I also assisted the nurses with giving injections and taking vitals. I really enjoyed teaching my team mates how to do vitals and take manual blood pressures. This trip really revealed to me my heart for teaching.

 

In the afternoon we toured a local hospital. I was pleasantly surprised at how well run the hospital was. In other countries I have visited the public hospitals are less than reputable. However, this hospital was clean, quiet and orderly.

We spent Wednesday at UCATSE's campus. In the morning we spent time in their lab. This was when I learned that my guess that I would not find lab work interesting came true. About five minutes into making agar to grow specimens in, I was ready for a nap (haha). That afternoon we went to their cadaver lab; well, everyone else went to the cadaver lab, I sat outside. I do NOT like dead bodies, especially extremely decayed ones. In all honesty, there is just something unnatural about fiddling around with someone Else's organs.

At UCASTE's Labs

Thursday and Friday we did two rural medical clinics at two different sites, 30 minutes and 60 minutes outside of Esteli, respectively. This for me was the highlight of the trip. I loved interacting with the local people and providing direct care and service to them. 

I loved teaching my team how to take manual blood pressure. It was incredible to see how accomplished it made them feel

My new friends, Claudia and Ricardo

Our first clinical site, a two room schoolhouse about 30 minutes outside of Esteli

One of the children at the clinic shared their pet parrot with me

Helping to give fluoride treatments to the local children.

A few personal reflections:

Before this trip I was familiar with the John Piper quote "Missions exist because worship doesn't", but I never truly grasped its meaning. However, I gained new understanding on this trip. I had an epiphany as I was standing with my team looking out over a mountain lake. Internally, I was marveling at the glory of God revealed in nature. My heart was filled with praise for the Lord; I wanted to sing at the top of my lungs about His greatness. I looked around and realized I was the only one who was thinking this way.  I was struck with the realization that these people were created to worship God, yet they worship idols. They were created to love Him, but they hate Him. I wanted to shout, "The Lord is great! Worship and love Him!"

I view these trips as personal mission trips to my fellow Honors College members. It is a unique time to have extended conversations about the gospel with them that are not possible at other times. I have to say, this trip was one of the most difficult times I have ever had sharing the gospel. It was a deadly combination of personal exhaustion as well as widespread hardness of hearts among the students. Over all it was fairly discouraging. But, the Lord was gracious and faithful. I rest in His sovereignty.

If you know me, you know that I have a bad habit of biting off more than I can chew. This trip to Nicaragua was, unfortunately, one of those times. I was just too stressed, exhausted and overwhelmed to really enjoy myself. I spent most of the week wishing I were home.

On that that thought, I don't think there's any better feeling then coming home to GBC. There is no place on earth I'd rather be. I never knew that I could become so attached to a group of people so quickly. But, truly these people have become my family. There has never been a place where I have felt as accepted and loved. No matter how much my world is falling to pieces, I always know that on Sunday I can go to church, worship the Lord, hear the word of God and get a hug from some one who loves me.

Soul Depths

"Beloved, when first you found the Savior, you imagined that the warfare had ceased, that the victory was won, and that, henceforth, your Christian course would be a continuous triumph over every foe, your path to heaven smooth and cloudless, until lost in perfect day! But your real growth in grace is the measure of your growing acquaintance with yourself. A deeper knowledge of your sinfulness, a more intimate acquaintance with the subterfuges of your own heart, has changed your paean of triumph into well-near a wail of despair; has hurled you as from the pinnacle to the base of the mount; and from the base, into a “depth” yet deeper you never supposed to exist, and out of which— the “slough of despond”—  your cry of agony ascends to God. 
 But, deem not your case a solitary one; nor be surprised, as though some strange thing had happened unto you. Such “depths” have all the saints. All are taught in this school; all are brought into the region of their own heart, where their holiest and most experimental lessons are learned. Let not, then, the existence, sight, and conflict of the indwelling of sin plunge you in despair; rather, accept it as an unmistakable evidence of your possession of the divine nature, of the living water welled in your soul- the existence and warfare of which have but revealed to you the counter existence and antagonism of the latent and deep-seated evil of your heart."

~Octavius Winslow on Psalm 130~

What I love about blogging

What I love about reading blogs:

First of all, it's like joining a global conversation. It's so enriching to hear all the different perspectives on issues. I love to study theology and then I love to see how it gets applied to real world situations. I'm no pragmatist, but I do love to see theology fleshed out and in action. Jesus is alive! We do not serve a dead God or an indifferent one. The words of Jesus are just as applicable today as they were when they were penned. Secondly, I think it's important for a Christian to be abreast of current societal issues and trends in thought. Blogs make that simple.

What I love about writing blogs:

Though blogging has a reputation for being a self-glorifying practice, I truly believe that it can be a God glorifying activity. No matter what topic I start writing about, I end up writing about the Gospel. It is my aim in this blog to show how Christ is supreme in all areas of life. Furthermore, I appreciate the chance to stretch my mental muscles. My degree requires a lot of critical thinking, but not a lot of critical analysis in writing. I miss the challenge of written communication. I've come to realize that writing is one of those skills that's gets real rusty, real quick if left unemployed. Also, sadly even when I was required to submit papers, the standards were such that I could submit work of poor quality and still receive top marks. However, putting my writting up on the internet forces me to push myself to produce quality product. Additionally, theologically, it forces me to succinctly hash out my views in a way that is both truthful and loving. 

A few recommended blogs:
The Gospel Coalition
Albert Mohler
Desiring God
Water Gate
Kevin Deyoung

The New Scar on My Soul

You need to read this article. Now.  

Here is an excerpt:
"But let nobody fool you.  It is not painless for the child, and anyone who says otherwise is a liar.  Abortion is not an excision of a featureless bunch of cells; it is infanticide.  We have revived the practice of child sacrifice to the new deities of casual sex and convenience.  We rationalize the reality of murder by altering our perspective of the nascent life through euphemisms like "fetus" or descriptions of "a clump of cells"...just like the Nazis convinced themselves that the people screaming as they were shot or gassed were "Untermenchen," subhuman, and therefore guiltlessly exterminated..."  


I was truly moved to tears while reading this article. I pray that this man finds true repentance and forgiveness in Jesus Christ.

Church Membership

Editors note: I originally wrote this post as a facebook note. It's purpose was to further develop some of the ideas that I had presented in conversations with my friends about the importance of being a member of a church. 

Friends,

Over the past few months I have had the opportunity to talk with many of you about the scriptural basis for church membership and my experience in becoming a member of a local body, Grace Bible Church of Tampa (GBCT). I wanted to take a moment to elaborate on the scriptural basis for the things I’ve been saying.

Q: Why is Sarah Jo so crazy about this whole church thing? 

A: Because becoming a member of GBC has transformed my walk with the Lord. For the sake of your eternal soul, please take the time to look up the Scriptures I reference and meditate on them. Do not be fooled by worldly logic or your own feelings and opinions. It is not a matter of conviction. Church membership is a command, and if we fear the Lord we shouldn't ignore it. Commitment to a local church is an assumption of the New Testament writers. It's not a matter of Christian freedom; it's a matter of obedience.

Ideas to consider:  

1) Jesus died for the church. He established it to be an earthly institution that would make a clear distinction between who is with Christ and who is not. If you are not in a church, how do you know that you are a Christian?

2) Scripture constantly commands Christians to submit to their elders/pastors. How can this happen when you are not a member of a local church? 

Scriptures to consider:

Christ is the head of the church. The church is his bride and his body, and he bought it with his own blood (Colossians 1:18, Ephesians 5:23, 1:22-23 and Acts 20:28).

Christ promised to build his church (Matthew 16:18).

Q: Well, my parachurch ministry (Navs, Cru, Intervarsity etc.) is like a church. Isn't that good enough? 

A: While it may be LIKE a church, it is NOT a church. For the following reasons:

• They don’t claim to be a church, nor do their leaders claim to be God-appointed elders or deacons. That should be enough evidence in and of itself.  
• They do not have church structure as defined by Scripture (i.e. God-appointed elders and deacons). 
• They don’t practice church discipline. When was the last time you heard of someone getting excommunicated from a parachurch ministry?  
• They do not administer the sacraments (Baptism and Communion).

Please NOTE: I am not saying parachurch ministries are evil, or you’re sinning by attending. However, I am saying that if you are not committing yourself to a local church, then you are disobeying God.

Q: But aren’t all believers “the church” when we get together and fellowship? 

A: Yes and no. Yes, all believers are a part of the universal church. The universal church includes all believers at all times. However, membership in and commitment to a local church is necessary. Christ ordained that there would be physical, visible local churches that have physical, visible government (i.e. elders and deacons).

Scriptures to consider:

• Christ set up specific God-ordained offices in his church (1 Corinthians 12:28).
• The elders were ordained by God to govern and shepherd us, keeping us away from false doctrine and guarding our souls from sin (1 Tim 5:17).
• Elders will give an account to God for how they fulfilled their ministry toward the members of their local church (Hebrews 13:17).
• They were also given the responsibility of praying and teaching the Word and defending sound doctrine (Titus 1:9; Acts 6).
• Qualifications for elders (1 Timothy 3:1-7, Titus 1:6-9).
• The church is responsible for administering the sacraments: baptism and communion (1Corinthians 11:17-33)
• The church conducts church discipline (Matthew 18:15-17).
• We can see that in the Scriptures Christ ordained a structure and order to the church. All of the epistles of the New Testament were written to instruct the local churches.
• We're commanded to submit to our elders, and our elders are commanded to shepherd us. (1 Peter 5:1-5, Hebrews 13:17). This is not optional.
• We're given spiritual gifts to serve the church (1 Peter 4:10-11; Ephesians 4:11-16)

This is just a beginning of what the Bible has to say about the church.

A few songs on the subject:
Stephen The Levite - Church Membership

Lecrae - The Church
Lecrae - The Bride 

For further reading: 

John Piper

How Important is Church Membership? (Sermon)
Is Church Membership Important? (Ask Pastor John)

9 Marks            

Why Should Every Christian Join A Church?

Other Reasons To Join A Church

What are the 9 Marks of a Healthy Church?

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Dear Emily

This is my response to an editorial appearing in Slate magazine's DoubleX section.  You can read the editorial here.

Dear Emily,

First and foremost, I would like to express the deep sorrow I felt for you after reading your essay. My heart breaks for the suffering you and your child are experiencing. I cannot begin to comprehend the inexpressible grief you must be feeling. To watch your child suffer in such a terrible way is truly horrific. You have my deepest sympathies. I know that your current circumstance may appear hopeless. You know your son is going to die, and you can't stop it. You don't know when, but you do know that it will be excruciatingly painful. To be in your shoes and live daily with this knowledge is incomprehensible.

In spite of all of that, I would like to offer you hope. Real hope. Hope that lasts and hope that heals. My aim is to encourage you and shine a light into the darkness. I also would like to gently examine some of your presuppositions about suffering, so that you will reconsider some of your statements. Most of all, I would like to point you to the only Savior of the world, Jesus Christ. 

First the Hope,

1. Ronan's suffering is not senseless.

Emily, as hard as this may be to understand, your son was born with Tay-sachs for a reason. The Bible makes it very clear that God is in control of suffering. He is sovereign. The LORD said to Moses “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord?" (Exodus 4:11). Many people struggle to understand this. How can a loving God cause suffering? There are many truths about the nature of suffering that I could discuss. However, since others have already done it (and done it better than I could), I will just refer you to them. But, I will leave you with these glorious truths: God has promised us that He is working all things out for the good of those who love God (Romans 8:28). God is not a man that He should lie, nor a son of man that He should repent (Numbers 23:19). He will bring to pass everything that He has promised His children.

Your story makes me think of another disabled child. His story is recorded in John 9. This man was also blind, like your son. We are told that He was blind since birth. When Jesus disciples saw the man they asked Him "Who sinned that this man was born blind? Him or his parents?" Jesus replied "Neither he nor his parents sinned, but he was born blind so that the works of God might be done in him." I bet if you could ask that man, he would tell you that an entire lifetime of blindness was completely worth the surpassing privilege of being the vessel of God's mercy. 

Sometimes the hardest part of enduring suffering is not having an answer to the question "why?". The mental anguish of uncertainty can be horrendous. Sometimes there is a very clear cause to our suffering, but many times there is not. But, no matter what happens to us we must never forget to look to Christ.

2. God cares about Ronan's suffering

We must never forget that no matter how severe our anguish or how unjust our circumstances, it will never compare to the anguish and injustice of the cross. Jesus Christ was the only person that has ever lived a sinless life. Yet, He chose to bear the reproach of the the cross, for us, ungodly sinners who hated Him (Romans 5:6-9, John 3:16; 1Peter 2:24; Isaiah 53:4-6).

The book of Hebrews informs us that "we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin.  Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need". 

Additionally, the book of Colossians 1:15 tells us that 'Jesus Christ is the image of the invisible God', and Hebrews 1:3 that 'the Son is the radiance of God's glory and the exact representation of his being.' So we know that in examining the heart of Christ, we are getting a glimpse of the heart of the eternal Father. Throughout Jesus' earthly ministry, we see Him healing the sick (who sometimes don't even bother to thank him, Luke 17:11-17). The Gospel of Matthew tells us that when Jesus saw the multitudes who were weary and scattered like sheep without a shepherd, He was moved with compassion (Matthew 9:36). We see again and again in the Bible that Jesus has a heart for the poor, for children, for the suffering. God is not indifferent to the sufferings of the people of this world.



3. Though his body may be broken in this world, it will not be so in the next.

The truth is, the Lord may not choose to heal your son's disease in this life, but He has promised to heal all diseases in the next. We know from the Bible that sin entered the world through Adam "Therefore, just as through one man sin entered the world, and death through sin, and thus death spread to all men, because all sinned—" (Romans 5:12) and that even the whole creation is subject to bondage because of man's sin. "For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God. For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of Him who subjected it in hope; because the creation itself also will be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation groans and labors with birth pangs together until now." (Romans 8:19-22).

However, God has not given up on His creation. He has not abandoned us. God promises that one day He will return and set all things right again. There will be a new heaven and a new earth. He will wipe every tear from our eyes, and there will be no more death (Revelation 21:4).

In 1 Corinthians 15, the Holy Spirit, through the apostle Paul, describes the resurrection of the dead.

"But Christ has indeed been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep. For since death came through a man, the resurrection of the dead comes also through a man. For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive.  But each in turn: Christ, the firstfruits; then, when he comes, those who belong to him. Then the end will come, when he hands over the kingdom to God the Father after he has destroyed all dominion, authority and power. For he must reign until he has put all his enemies under his feet. The last enemy to be destroyed is death."

And later in the same chapter: 

"For the perishable must clothe itself with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality. When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: “Death has been swallowed up in victory.”
      “Where, O death, is your victory?
        Where, O death, is your sting?”
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law.  But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." 


Now, I have a few things I would like you to consider regarding your presuppositions about the nature of suffering.

1. Quality of life is indeterminable.

By what standards are we to judge what makes a life worth living? Some would say that living with a severe mental impairment would be unbearable, yet I have met many severely disabled children who are thankful for every breath they have been given.


Can your son understand the words that you say? Maybe not. Can your son understand that you love him when you hold him in your arms? Maybe yes. It's impossible for us to know how much a person understands. Therefore, you can have hope that when you cradle your son in your arms, he knows that his mommy loves him more than all the world. Your son may not have the length of life of most people, and he may not be able to do the things that other children do. But, that doesn't mean his life is completely devoid of any meaning. Your sweet little boy is a gift from the Lord to be treasured and loved for as long as the Lord allows you to have him.

2. You can't "save" your child from suffering.

Your desire to spare your child as much suffering as possible is natural and right. Mommies want to protect their children. We want to be our babies' heroes. We hurt when they hurt; their suffering is our suffering. But, ultimately, we are not in control of our child's fate. At the end of the day, even perfectly physically healthy people suffer in unimaginable ways, yet we do not say that it would be better if they had not been born. Suffering goes hand in hand with living. To live a life avoiding suffering is to never really live at all.

To quote C.S. Lewis:

" To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”

3. Is it really merciful to kill those who are suffering?

There is much I would like to say about this; however, that will have to wait for another day. Instead, I would like for you to consider the following question: What if suffering serves a greater purpose than we can see?

4. Prenatal testing gives false positives.

It is true that the information pre-natal testing provides is neither moral not amoral. It's what we do with the information that brings about a moral or immoral act. However, one CANNOT know in advance how a child's life will be based on prenatal testing.

Furthermore, while I do not intend to write an pro-life apologetic here (that's a topic for another post), I would like to point out that abortion always involves three people: the mother, the doctor, and the unborn child. We know from a purely scientific perspective that human life begins at conception. Abortion, no matter what the circumstances, always involves the killing of an innocent human being. As the saying goes, "Your right to swing your arms freely, stops at the other person's nose." A mother never has the right to take the life of her unborn child, end of story.

Furthermore, the capacity to end pregnancies at will does not make us more fully human, it makes us less than human. 

5. Pregnancy is not a punishment for having sex. 

It is a consequence and there is a difference. First and foremost, pregnancy is a natural (and I would say, beautiful) result of the physical union of one man and one women. It is the joining of two people in the most intimate way possible and the creation of a new soul. When you create a baby with someone, you are irreversibly linking your DNA with theirs and forever changing the genetic makeup of the human race. It's an incredible thing, really. 

Part of being an adult is making decisions. All decisions have consequences, both positive and negative. For example, if I choose to stay up all night playing video games before an exam, I'm probably not going to do so hot. My poor performance would be a consequence of my decision. Sex is an adult decision, and it comes with responsibilities--social, emotional, relational, and financial. To pretend that it is possible to have sex without consequences is foolishness. When an adult chooses to engage in it, they must recognize that should they or their partner get pregnant, they are now responsible for that child's life. They are not their own anymore, they have another life depending on them. That life is a person who has every much a right to life as they do.

In conclusion:
You see Emily, the answer to your son's suffering isn't found in the ending of his suffering. The answer to suffering is in the gospel.

So in light of that, I urge you to run to Christ, Emily.
"Cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you." (1 Peter 5:7).
Jesus Himself said, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."(Matthew 11:28-29).


God's promises are glorious, but they only apply to His children. The Gospel of John says "But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God." If today God has worked in your heart and you see that truly, you deserve death for your sins, then look to Christ and know that if you turn from your sins (repent) and put your trust in Jesus Christ as your only means of salvation (believe) that you will be forgiven.

“Today, if you will hear His voice,
Do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion.” 

(Hebrews 3:15)

To all the mothers out there who are caring for terminally ill and permanently disabled children: Hang on, there is hope. Society may give up on your children. The medical community may give up on your children. But you must never give up on your children. Never lose hope. You may never see the fruit of your labor on this side of eternity, but God will not forget your work and labor of love (Hebrews 6:10).